tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post759183968116829417..comments2024-02-20T00:10:20.214-06:00Comments on KatyDid Cancer: Day 1,025: "Cancer Ennui" or Depression?Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-55437206294653975832013-04-16T20:05:11.044-05:002013-04-16T20:05:11.044-05:00Ah, that total makes sense then. I was just curiou...Ah, that total makes sense then. I was just curious. And I agree with short depression episodes it's not like you could take them for those days only anyway. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-18439377215100029902013-04-16T15:32:14.150-05:002013-04-16T15:32:14.150-05:00I react horribly to almost all meds, of any kind; ...I react horribly to almost all meds, of any kind; I was even told by my chemo nurse that I should "never take any medication again--like EVER--once you're done with cancer." I also had to take anti-convulsants as a child for epilepsy (Depakote, for example), and I remember what a number they did on me. Because each depression is temporary, I know I just need to work through it.Katy Jacobhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02524508177957058950noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-48548453098379157992013-04-16T14:05:35.925-05:002013-04-16T14:05:35.925-05:00Kudos to being brave and discussing depression ope...Kudos to being brave and discussing depression openly. I wish for you the strength to continue through on these tough days. I am curious about one thing, you mention "no" to anti-depressants but you didn't state in this post why. (Maybe you have in others?) I am just curious what your reasoning is since lots of folks have different reasons for not wanting to take meds. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-72080002206771792252013-04-14T15:18:44.781-05:002013-04-14T15:18:44.781-05:00Oh, yikes, Katy. What a thing to have to deal with...Oh, yikes, Katy. What a thing to have to deal with on top of everything else you've already been through (and continue to deal with). And you're absolutely right - depression changes your ability to perceive your life accuratly, regardless of how logical you or others around you try to be. The next time it hits, come back and read this if it's any comfort (because it IS the absolute truth): You always have been and still are one of my best friends. I love you because you are one of the smartest, funniest, most realistic people I know, and despite all that, you have still been there for me through thick and thin. During those times when I know I'm worthless, it's helped a lot to know you were in my corner... that maybe I might possibly be wrong about the worthlessness, and I hang in there while it passes.Juliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15004173055166404126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-89627673972460440842013-04-14T08:21:02.415-05:002013-04-14T08:21:02.415-05:00How fabulous that you now get to experience the ho...How fabulous that you now get to experience the hormonal journey that many girls and women get to go through from day one. Cancer just keeps on bearing new and AWESOME gifts, doesn't it? <br /><br />I mark my calendar with "expect" and it is a huge HUGE help to remind my mind that this is NOT reality, but a huge fluctuation in hormones. Winter time only increases the depressive fall and it is only right around this time of the year that I am able to make it through a cycle without bawling hysterically. <br /><br />And that's without adding cancer to the mix.<br /><br />It totally brings new meaning to the word "depression," doesn't it? Until you've actually experienced it, you don't realize that it isn't something you can really "control" but rather something you have to just get through. tracey.becker1@gmail.comhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09606831315390042198noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-6669422372842488752013-04-13T17:01:13.151-05:002013-04-13T17:01:13.151-05:00Definitely allowed. Though I will always be a litt...Definitely allowed. Though I will always be a little jealous of those in the "or no" category!Katy Jacobhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02524508177957058950noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-68653294039994990492013-04-13T16:58:57.357-05:002013-04-13T16:58:57.357-05:00Cancer or no (am I allowed to say that?) you wrote...Cancer or no (am I allowed to say that?) you wrote a very relatable journey here. Thank you so much for sharing.Mariannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04509329937576764550noreply@blogger.com