tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post170721195553063098..comments2024-02-20T00:10:20.214-06:00Comments on KatyDid Cancer: Day 1,407: The FighterUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-50428869821919160472014-04-22T23:09:25.258-05:002014-04-22T23:09:25.258-05:00Oh yeah, I'm totally the party killer with my ...Oh yeah, I'm totally the party killer with my conversations these days. The thoughts and feelings that have become a normal part of my everyday since cancer came around tends to elicit that look, you know the one, that look that shows just how devastating your normal can seem to someone who's not living it. Or, my sense of humor changing drastically, or maybe the reaction to my humor. I've always been good at the dry sarcasm, but it comes off a lot harsher now when I make cracks about chemo, or I react with a flippant response to those folks who want to talk about their curl envy for my new locks. <br />I've lost my ability to be entertained by the mundane conversations, the gross generalizations, and especially the things that "normal" "healthy" thirtysomethings are up to. Oh, that new house you got? Awesome! That baby on the way. Good for you. That career path your carving out. Good luck. Cancer kind of killed my ability to plan. Even in "remission" there are no safe plans. <br />Thanks for sharing. Here's to being drafted. Ugh.SurlyQueerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06809198942883023182noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-10020237387607283242014-04-22T15:30:02.286-05:002014-04-22T15:30:02.286-05:00I feel the same, Katy. 'Just keep swimming'...I feel the same, Katy. 'Just keep swimming' just about sums it up for all of us going through this. With love... BeccaRebecca ENnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7125354934408472049.post-21700191781912114442014-04-21T21:38:00.892-05:002014-04-21T21:38:00.892-05:00Swim.
I always think back to that tiny little gir...Swim.<br /><br />I always think back to that tiny little girl floating on her back in the crowded swimming pool - oblivious to the chaos around her...defying gravity because there couldn't have been enough body weight to keep you afloat - or at least that's how I saw it from the perspective of the mom poolside.<br /><br />I guess I should have been worried that you would sink - or that someone bigger and tougher than you would sink you - but I never was...and I'm not now.<br /><br />I wish you could find that place in the middle of that chaotic pool that seemed so peaceful, but barring that, for now, until it creeps back<br /><br />swim.<br />Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05327701924465360560noreply@blogger.com